“I mocked someone that died in the bathtub. The very next day...I died in the bathtub. And I came back with a different set of eyes.” -R.B. Rouge
A Glimpse Before the Storm
There was a time I couldn’t look in the mirror… because I knew I wasn’t living like the woman I was meant to be. I’m one of those people who can’t do wrong without feeling it immediately. Some folks can cut people down, lie, judge, hurt people then seemingly walk away untouched. I’ve never had that luxury. Every time I step out of alignment, Its only a matter of time before life snaps me back. I had been on a sobriety high for several years {5 years 3 months 7 days, 8 hours to be exact} When the first leg in my high horse broke. Someone reached out to me for help— She had never personally done anything to me for me to react in such a belligerent way. Instead of meeting her with compassion, I judged her through other people’s opinions. I turned her away based on those other people's biases. Fast forward a couple of years later, in the midst of my own rapid fall from grace . —I'd go on to say something I had no business saying about a woman who'd now lost her battle with the addiction she was once desperate to escape. The very next day, I'd die the very exact same way. The timing was too sharp to ignore. It shook me awake in a way nothing else ever had. Coming Soon Subscriber Only Patreon 2026 .
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R.B. Rouge