Purpose Statement:
This collection of images is a reflection of my journey through depersonalization, a condition which I developed in high school. It makes life feel distant, unreal, and fragmented. It’s an experience that’s hard to put into words—a state where I feel detached from my surroundings as if I’m watching my life play out from the outside. Through this collection of work, I aim to translate those feelings into visuals, offering a glimpse into what it’s like to live with this condition. I want to take you into my world, showing you what I see and feel when the lines between reality and perception blur.
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All the streaks of light represent everything happening around me, a blur of motion, while I sit still, feeling as if I have no control over any of it. It feels like looking at myself through a mirror, as if it's a window into my own existence—close enough to see, but just out of reach.
It felt as if there was a darkness over my vision, which made everything seem distant and foreign. Like I was in a dream walking on a path that I could not control.
Like looking outside of a box, seeing your own life happen. A feeling maybe a fish in a bowl might get, but looking at your own life.
Feeling like you are watching a movie of events happening with you, watching through a screen, close enough to see, but not to control.
It feels as if all the objects around me are distorted. It feels like time is warped, and there is a disconnect. It feels like there is motion, but I can't control it.
And at first, I was questioning my own existence, looking back at myself and wondering if this was a dream of reality. But now I know, this is my reality.
Credits:
Created with an image by chathuporn - "Dark empty room. Wooden table with smoke and black backgrounds.Wooden floor and wooden wall.."