CULMINATION WORDS an Anthology

Path of Culmination is a Curation of Literary Works by Dr. Mas Ruscitadewi. Literary offerings in the Culmination. Calm In Nation Visual Art Exhibition by Sawidji in collaboration with Santrian Art Gallery, Bali. May-June 2024.

Culmination Visual Art Exhibition is fortunate to have the contributions of many writers imbue our gathering with their profound poetry, stories and reflections. Culmination invited artists to offer works with a message for the wider community, one that inspires peace, tolerance and a kind social consciousness. Our writers shared their stories in the same spirit. Everyone offering their highest 'peak' which in turn reveals their deepest message.

Cherished and reflected upon by all of us throughout Culmination. Through a film recording directed by Dibal Ranuh and the transcribing of these works into Balinese Aksara on Lontar leaves by Darma Putra and Ari Pebriyani.

Your First Step! Your Final Goal!

by Agung Putra

Think about it! This is the time

that harvests gold over silence.

When crisp hate burns diversity into broken chards of coal.

Move! in dance, in song, in poetry, in colours

To soothe and soften life and recover humanity.

It is not just a celebration of joy,

but a gathering of creative expressions surpassing the space-time dimension.

Freeing limits. Limiting freedoms.

Choosing seeds, sorting steps

Lay out the path. It's time to tick off space

Charming friend

against the burden, of boxed fences.

The party is finally here

Eternal kinship. The ultimate goal of our democracy

Right at the beginning of your steps.

Death of Reckoning. An American Storyteller Comes to Terms with his Balinese Father-in-law's Passing

Brandon Spars marks the 'peak" as his understanding of his own position as an American with his father-in-law as a Balinese, Indonesian. As reflected in the story excerpt entitled Death of Reckoning:

An American Storyteller Comes to Terms with his Balinese Father-in-law's Passing. A profound realisation, unexpected and brutally honest.

I Love You

IGA Darma Putra

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

Say it to everyone

Who you meet day and night

So that hatred is destroyed

Like ashes from your own body

blown by the wind

Into silence

Just because I love you

I didn't find it

The difference between the moon and the sun

Or the stars

Throughout the universe

With fireflies

Or even the look in your eyes

Look

I'm isolated

Into painful love

Picking up my body's poems

which has been dated

before his time

Listen

I really

Love you

Love you

Others offer the wise footprints left in life's labyrinth. The maze that snares us and traps us in ourselves as we resist what we face. Eda Ocak's Labyrinth represents the peak of awakening, of achievement when one accepts life without resistance.

Labyrinth

Eda Ocak

I'm in a labyrinth and there's no exit.

But I don't know that there is no exit,

I say to myself each time

If I turn this corner

I'll see the exit door.

Sometimes while walking,

I can be mesmerised by the beauty of the scenery

And forget my destination.

the people and animals I meet on the road,

I get dizzy with what's happening and what's not happening.

Do I turn right or do I turn left?

Or I don't know if I would have gone straight,

I forget.

Some days I'm determined.

I remember.

There was an exit door somewhere,

I mean, it's got to be somehow

That I walked to find him,

I remember travelling all this way to find that exit.

My mind is a clear sky.

I even get excited, thinking I'm getting closer to the exit,

But some days

I get tired

Is there no way out?

I've been walking all this way for nothing,

I've been asking around,

Excuse me, where's the exit?

They look at me like I've lost my mind.

And someone says, "I think he's a lunatic...

I panic.

I'm gasping for breath.

I'm punching the walls.

Where is the exit, where is it?

Even the possibility that there is no exit is terrifying.

When I realise I keep passing the same places again and again…

If there's no way out, I say.

What if we're always here

What if there's nowhere else to go to?

And that's when I notice that under my breastbone

Something strong echoes through the soles of my feet

“No resistance, we're here.”

We're always here.

No way out.

Don’t resist!

That's the whole secret.

All fears, all sorrows, all joys

To all the mornings and nights of the world

And so we're going into this labyrinth

When there is no resistance,

There is an exit.

There's an exit you can get out of without getting out.

If there's no resistor, there's an exit.

Just remember;

Each time you get lost,

Because you resist your experience.

You want to run away,

You want to change your reality

When it’s not the way you want.

You punch the walls just in case

You might crack them so

You can run.

But when no resistance

When you say this too

Acceptance,

Then the labirent itself

Disappears

And this is time it turns into joy

Joy of being alive now and here.

There is nowhere to escape

Surrender to the labirent

I mean the samsara

Where it can transform itself

Into nirvana

When there is no resistance…

Indoor Gardening

Adnyana Ole

I planted a fire tree in the cold

You pick it and it tastes salty

From the fruit that appears

just like that on the edge of the forehead

"I'm harvesting!" you said.

I also kissed your forehead

Taste salty

which will soon be gone

Stay away from old age

You planted a fire tree in the air

I bit it and then it tasted sour

From hanging fruit

So much so on the tip of the tongue

"I can!" I said

You also bit my tongue

As if stopping the words

which used to always be loose

falling like rain

on a chair in the living room

I plant water trees in the heat

You pick it and it tastes sour

From hundreds of pieces gathered

As usual at your fingertips

“I have a great harvest!” you said

I also sucked your fingers

Let me enjoy the sour essence of life

before it dissolves

in sweet promises

in the cauldron's niche

You plant water trees in the air

I inhaled then tasted bland

Of flowing fruit

So it is with the breath flow

“I am abundant!” I said

You also inhale my breath

Gives appearance to blandness

I look like you

children's appearance

on the dining table

I planted air trees in the heat

You then get a spicy taste

From imagined fruit

So real in the eyes

“I got cash!” you said

I also washed your eyes

So that you can see perfectly

how commonplace everything is

what luxury everything is lacking

on the front porch

You plant trees in the cold

I gasped at the bitter taste

From the seeds of the fruit that glides rapidly

That's how fast the blood flows in the veins

“I thank you!” I said

You also rubbed my veins

Treating bitterness as a healer

wound on the leg

pain in the heart

pain all over the house

Me, You and Us

Dr. Mas Ruscitadewi

My name is Dust, something small,

very small, lonely alone.

No matter how small and insignificant I am,

like other humans,

I still hope to be a useful being.

Yes, as a sentient being,

My smallness seems meaningless.

However, just like you,

my life is also one.

Actually you know that,

but you are dumb and mute.

Pretending not to know,

and don't want to know

let me be the dust of a nuisance,

sparkling gem light

Clear flowing water,

pure clean air

Just fire, teaching

Always giving

Changing me day by day

Trees stand firm on essence

The beasts ran wild

Man stands tall but is afraid of death

Be careful

Too ambitious to be heartless

Humans think

Change destiny

Rule the universe

Dominates all

Disrespect everything

Man said

Spread charm

Hiding

Painful to the ears

Hurts the soul

Humans do

Always step on

The small one is on the nipple

The weak chewed and spat out

Creating castes

Differentiate colors

Worship the throne of Artha

You forget, all perish

Finally, the land lovingly embraced

The place of the fall maketh your home

You and I are the same

We are one air Universe

Brothers

My name is Dust

of uncertain flight

Water and wind brought me to you

Fire burned my body

May its flame illuminate you

Transcendence

Ngurah Arya Dimas Hendratno

Morning tears are surrounding the fields

Green and cold, embracing the sky

Keep the mountain green

And hold the sea freeze on blue velvet

Melted from the flossy river,

On the parlour of tranquility

All question coming fulfil my mind

From the author of live

Grown from the deep lounge dessert

Preserve all human on their examination

Path of the ceiling clumps

Creating crumbs of faith meaning

None of clans star birth in the cave

Hide from the crowd

I entered cloudy minds interception

owning the major of consciousness

Within the darkness side of human though

Sorrow with an enhance perception

Whose conquer the time

Fragrance of universe in capturing beyond live

Paradox of God along creating, rebirthing and vanishing

Mindfulness of living transcendently

Agni…-Fire….

O Fire, O sun….your gentle warmth wakes up the lotus…

but then your relentless warmth burns my skin….

and brings forth, sweat, water…

the moon….its waxing waning…..makes the sea dance…

now high….now low…

You can reduce anything to ash…make it non-existent…

such is your power…

.and you can even reduce me to nothing…

and make me return to this earth..?

when you are not there…

.everything is hidden …

you illuminate everything…

maybe you are his very eyes..

watching me all the time….?

Bhumi….-Earth

O Earth ….wondrous earth, vast and infinite

your earthy fragrance quickens the senses…

the little seed you nurse in your womb

feeds all…

Tall trees filled with flowers…..oh! their sweet scents…

On one, soft sands where the camel treads

On the other, rocky earth, the elephant walks…

Mountains, deep valleys and deep down what do you hide?

Gold!…shining alluring…

O earth you who art the giver of plenty, the ever nurturing,

Infinite is your extent and expanse

Is He then thus so…infinite?

Is his very chest, of your form

the chest that I can lay my head on

and finally merge into??.

You who are firm , steady , unyielding….so too must he be??

Jala- Water…

O water, gentle, ever flowing, .as time..

You descend from the mountains as falls,

become the river and merge with the ocean…

You cleanse everything that touches you.

When the earth is parched, you descend as rains and preserve it…..

cheering the peacocks…

Are his tresses like your’s …. Flowing?

you here and you here….

you are the same!..

is it so with me and with him?....

Do we become one?

Vayu…-Air,

O air, O wind , ….

butterflies who swing in your arms…

birds whom you take here and there …

you drive the clouds to send us rain….

Prana…

you are the source of life for me,

You are within me….without me….

Is he the one then within me as prana…

Are we already one then ….?

If I shed this form…then maybe I too can fly...??

Spring Has Come

Shio Senda

The spring has come

The winter has gone without rainfalls

The earth was left with color of dead and heat

One day

We saw white, yellow and pink dots in the huge landscape

The burst of wild flowers

My cells got burst for the joy

The water is in the air, in the ground, and in ourselves

The life keeps dancing everywhere

The spring has come

Finished

Sonia Piscayanti

Finished

We've already had tears

Crying over what is not necessary

Unnecessary injuries

Unnecessary sorrow

Unnecessary coals

Maybe we are just born as statues

Have a voice but don't need it either

Have a body but also don't need it

Have a taste but also not necessary

We used to have feelings of shame

Which now seems unnecessary

This nation seems to be passing by in unnecessary things

This poem is unnecessary

There's no need to worry about this

The country doesn't need people who know shame

Because he himself is not ashamed

Because there's no need

Unfortunately we once lived with pride

Call yourself human

Now everything is almost in vain

There is only one taste, no need

No need for anything

We're not going anywhere anyway

Not going anywhere

Because everything is there

It's been planned in our name

But we're not there

Because we don't need to be there

So where are we

In a leaf, or in a root, or in a lake,

or in a vacuum

We are there but not there

We haven't gone anywhere yet

Finally finished, slowly

In a room of our own minds

Which will always be a statue for this nation

To those who have passed

We don't believe in shame

Marine Obituary

Wini Arthini

I read the whispers of the wind

Guess fallen leaves rotting on the wet ground

And dusk offers its colours

Creates a fading shadow

There is a heavy sadness in the beach sand

Like my sorrow

Pain swept away by the waves

Moaning the steps of the rain

Take my steps

In deep wounds

Drowning in tears

What can't be endured

I'll wait for you at the place we agreed on

A place where we are greeted by clouds of dreams

You come bringing light

Never stop talking about life and living

Take away my sorrow

Hope awaits us to be awakened

Lighting the embers of a fire that is almost extinguished

Thus we become one heartbeat

Explore the tunnel of light together

There's no time to be sad

Nothing can change

Everything seems clear

A Special Thank You

Ida Bagus Gede Sidharta Putra for the opportunity to collaborate with Santrian Art Gallery and Popo Danes for his wonderful encouragement and opening Culmination. Dian Dewi Reich for the program and curation.

To all our writers and artists for their contributions in Culmination Calm In Nation Art Exhibition.

Agung Putra, Brandon Spars, Darma Putra, Eda Ocak, Eric Buvelot, Made Adnyana Ole, Mas Ruscitadewi, Nandhini Krisna, Ngurah Arya Dimas Hendratno, Shio Senda, Sonia Piscayanti, Wini Arthini

Agus Kama Loedin, David Hopkins, Dibal Ranuh, Made Kaek, ManButur Suantara, Putu Bonuz Sudiana, Sujana Suklu, Tjandra Hutama, Wayan Suastama

To Dibal Ranuh and Kitapoleng for their generous collaboration in filming our artists' poetry recital and the production of Culmination of Words.

Special thank you Dian Iswari, Jasmine Okubo and Kang Hajat for our opening performances.