Depending on the music someone listens to, they can feel a certain way. Everyone experiences a range of emotions and there are songs for every moment. In this project I was not always happy or sad. There are always different feelings every few minutes due to a reaction to the situation or moment that we can go through. And it's okay to not always feel good. It's normal because it means that you have a heart with feelings. We all deal with problems or situations in different ways. Feelings can shape us as humans and how we experience each moment. Not everything will always be rosy, but there is good news.
There is MUSIC:an opportunity to distract yourself from the world and wrap yourself in some catchy rhythms and lyrics that can end up destroying your heart (because of how identified you can feel with the lyrics). The music is good and representative. and that is what I aim to represent in this project Ambivalent: mixed or contrary feelings. In each photo there is a song that I thought was special at that time and shows how I felt, but everyone has the freedom to interpret it the way they want. And now let your thoughts and feelings flow according to the project Ambivalent.
Something In My Way by Nirvana
The process of editing these photos with music and with other editors made me love editing my photos. When editing the gothic photos, the editing was to lower the exposure, the highlight, the shadows and the vibrance down, to get those effects. For photos that are more colorful and with a little more feeling, I just adjust in general the lighting of the photos. I increased the vibrance, saturating some of the colors, and using the color mixer to give saturation on some of them. I saturate certain colors to make them stand out. The entire process was beautiful, and I hope you also enjoy the photos of this project.
LONELY
Looking at this light that afternoon made me lonely, in life you are the only one that can lift yourself up, and God always giving you that light in your way.
before I took these photo I was not feeling very good, but looking at the window and seeing that whole full of light in a really cloudy day, made me think that there is hope even during the worst days.
Things were dark and emotionally bad but after the hope the world gave me, I started finding more light in my path, things were getting more color in my head, and my feeling were different. taking me out of a black whole.
Going back home, made me feel confused, a lot of mixed feeling at that moment. just like the day being sunny but Cloudy at the same time. My confusion is of love. should I keep loving her or not. relationship are hard, but I still want to be with you. at your side, hugging you and never let you go.
I felt nostalgic at that moment, because looking at this trees and houses, made me think that I was in movie, having flash backs of the best moment I ever had with her. wishing everything could go back to normal. but nothing was vain. every single second was worth it as long she was there, making me smile.
This moment and this photos are one of the best ones. the sunset in the city the movement of the train. the music in my ears. the lights of the carousel is good. just like the camera does to take photos, I felt like that moment freeze. and for a second I imagined my self with her in a terrace, looking at the sunset. and showing her how much I loved her with a sunset. 🌆
Apathy
To be honest one of my favorites song. the way the artist sings this song is beautiful. he puts so much feeling on it. and I can feel those emotion. I'm able to feel them so much that everything around me just disappears. Nothing matters anymore, just like the person in the middle of the photo, nothing has no matter to you while completing your dream and just doing what you want. do your best. and become the best version of yourself. BE MORE!
Another unique song that is part of me. The feeling of being unique, giving your best around a bunch of people around you. I think that she is also unique. she is so deep in my heart that there will be no time that would take her out of my mind, and heart, just like the little flowers with their root deep inside the ground. She would always live deep inside my heart.
LOVE
That day, I remember it pretty well, For some reason after not seeing her for a 1 week or text her. Having the emptiest heart that week, that day I felt like everything was about love. The feeling was so strong that nothing was able to change it, not even the music.
Thoughtful
I just had some much in my head that day. and the piano made me think a lot more. the sun and the sakura flowers just made it feel more thoughtful and then I saw the position of the flowers and the sun I just fell in love with the shot.
I felt satisfy, you might be asking, to be honest all this project was a hard work. with work, school, relationship and house. a little moment of satisfaction. I felt like I was doing things right, giving my best but not my 100% though, but its alway important to do your best and give your best.
Hi, My name is Marcos, I'm 16 years old. my schools name is Digital Art And Cinema Technology. I really like photography because since I was little my uncle introduced me a little to the art of photography and then as the years went by I ended up enrolling in a school that taught me about cameras and how to be a good artist when it comes to photography. I like what you can convey through compositions, colors, and lights. Obviously there is much more but that was what impacted me the most. I like traveling, listening to music and apple pies. I consider myself a person who respects and is kind. But when you get to know me I'm going to bother you a lot. And that's one way of me saying that I consider you a good person/ friend.
HOPED YOU HAVE ENJOYED THIS PROJECT❤️❤️🥹🥹
This project was created as part of the Future Imagemakers program in the NYU Department of Photography and Imaging at Tisch School of the Arts in Spring 2024. To see all the 2024 Future Imagemakers projects, click here.